Dear Ex

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First I want to send my condolences to your heart. It pleases me to know that I've broken you just as much as you broke me. 

 You say its been over a year and I should get over you, but why are you so concerned with me getting over you? After all you claim you've been over me for a while now, so why care? Are you feeling guilty? Sweetie you really shouldn't. 

 Live your life. I am just not going to put my heart through the trauma of getting into a new relationship only to have it end in a rebound. 

 My heart is precious and it can take as long as it wants to heal. But trust me, mentally I am over you. And its not that I cannot get another boyfriend, it's just that I don't want one yet. I mean afterall, have you seen me, yes you have and you certainly know what you lost. I was gorgeous, but now I am just trailing on another level, and it gets even better by the day.

I am not waiting for a perfect guy, I mean perfect guys are just bad: Êxhibit A -> You. And I may not know what I want in a man right now, but I sure hell know what I don't want "I don't want you back".

 Just because I mention how I unfortunately still love you, it doesn't mean I want you back. Just because I still cry over what happened, it doesn't mean the underlying reason is you. You are not a factor in my life anymore. I cry, not because of you, but because of the wasted time and the wasted love. This process is taking long because I choose it, it's not you, and its working for me.


I don't hate you. Unlike you, I don't feel the need to emphasize of how happy I am without you or how I am over you, trust me you can see it. 

 And stop reading my Facebook status, Twitter updates and Blog, that's just creepy.

You say you are happier without me and are over me, don't try to convince me to aid your process. And I am certain you have moved on, after all you gotta f*ck something right. 

 Just stop being a jerk. You are a very mean man...its so sad. 

 I am glad that we broke up, but don't let another girl suffer. I know you can love, I know you can take care of a woman. What happened between us was an unfortunate mistake. We tried, but it just didn't work. 

 I would like to wake up one day and laugh about this. I don't want you as my enemy, like I said, having an enemy requires feelings too. To me, you are just a memory.  Hell! I don't even know how you look like anymore. 

 What I am going through right now isn't a heartbreak, its a choice. Its a choice to linger on to the time I lost and the love I couldn't keep. Not that I am torn over you... HELL NO! That time has passed. 

 Now live your life, I don't need your hellos that come in funny faces, or a reminder that I should get over you. Or your Merry Christmas's and fake Happy New Year messages. Like I said, I got my closure. If you still haven't found yours, I hope this helps.

PS: Don't feel obliged to respond I was #just_saying.





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