Just Yolanda Zondo

I am just going to get into it.  Why do we dwell on pain? Why do we focus on those that we loved but never loved us? Why dwell on disappointment? Hmmm? I spent months crying and days trying to figure out why I was never enough for one person. I questioned my worth, and wondered why no one loves me.     I gave five years of my life to loving a man selflessly. I gave him my all. I spent every single day of our five years together trying to be the best that I can be for him. I dreamed of a future with him. And the day he broke up with me, with the words ‘I am no longer happy in this relationship’, it tore me apart. I looked at myself in the mirror every day and I could not recognise myself. I no longer knew who I was and I struggled so much trying to be someone else, because who I was could not even make a single human being happy. This is what the pain of the heartbreak did to me.   The break up broke me mentally. I could not ex...

"The more we talk, the more I begin to realise we may never talk again" is what she wanted to say, but instead she said "okay, I will hear from you later". Sabrina hangs up the phone and starts walking in circles in the bedroom. She has been waiting to feel this type of love again. She has already given up hope on finding it, but Gregor came and he said just the right things. But now, the more she learns about him, the more she feels like it is just a mistake. And under all his sweet talk, he is just like every other guy. I watched her from a distance, thinking, this will never work. These two have never even met, touched or seen each other. What if he actually has no legs? Or hands? Or no toes? But even worse, what if he can't tolerate her walking "barefoot" fetish? Even I cannot stand it. I mean sometimes Sabrina has a way of annoying you. She also talks too much. A complete know it all. Hmm. I chuckle, remembering how it was like when I met ...