Just Yolanda Zondo

While many maintain that it is an act of cowardice, I can not help but feel it was during these moments that I felt certain about what I wanted in life. I wanted it to end. This is my story. The biggest mistake I made was to plan my whole life around someone else. I was with my ex for five years and I had already planned to be with him till death do us apart. Though it now seems like I was alone in that planning. I never took the time to ask myself "Entlek, what does Sindy want?" It was always about "what does Thami* want". I never even asked him to be quite honest. We lived together so I assumed this vat n' sit was going to lead to a ring and a couple of babies. But it didn't, it only led to "I am no longer happy with you Sindy, I have not been happy with you for a very long time".  Crushed and beyond devasted I continued with life. That is what you do right? After the break-up, my canvas was blank I had no idea what I was going to...

First I want to send my condolences to your heart. It pleases me to know that I've broken you just as much as you broke me.  You say its been over a year and I should get over you, but why are you so concerned with me getting over you? After all you claim you've been over me for a while now, so why care? Are you feeling guilty? Sweetie you really shouldn't.  Live your life. I am just not going to put my heart through the trauma of getting into a new relationship only to have it end in a rebound.  My heart is precious and it can take as long as it wants to heal. But trust me, mentally I am over you. And its not that I cannot get another boyfriend, it's just that I don't want one yet. I mean afterall, have you seen me, yes you have and you certainly know what you lost. I was gorgeous, but now I am just trailing on another level, and it gets even better by the day. I am not waiting for a perfect guy, I mean perfect guys are just bad: Êxhibit A -> You....