When you know you are learning

waking up in the morning to go to school is hard. and as a varsity student staying outside your parents supervision is even harder but a lot of fun.Since last year 2009, i have learnt to control myself, whether it is through the food i eat, the money i spend or what i choose to do with my life, i have learned. As the year 2010 is about to end, i am still worried about the choices i have made. How does one stop running away from themselves, from knowing that "okay, i made a mistake now i need to start living again",?  i have learned that life is really short and to dwell on my past mistakes, i wont get anywhere. I have learned that some times the person you once thought was your everything can be the person who will always be noted as an enemy forever in your eyes and in the heart that once loved them.

You know you are learning when you are able to stand up in a crowd and say "i am different". You know you have learned when you can look at your psychology tutor in the eyes and say "i need help". You even know that you are learning when you hear your best friend, who you use to get drunk with say "gosh girl, you have changed" and you have learned when you can look at some one who loves you and who you love back say "i love you" and you can say "i love you too" without feelings of regret.

Learning should be treasured, especially when we are beings who are resilient. No use spending days crying because your parents died when you were two and you grew up as an orphan, learn, grow so you can change your future circumstances....